TAMPA (FOX 13) -
Day two of testimony in the Julie Schenecker trial continued with disturbing details about the Tampa Palms mother's state of mind.
On Tuesday morning, excerpts from Schenecker's personal journal were read in court. In them, she said she killed her kids, Beau and Calyx, to spare them the embarrassment of depression and bipolar disorder.
She remarked that it was "time for her to go," that she was "taking her kids' pain away," and even blamed her husband, Parker, for not correctly helping to raise their children.
She wrote that she felt alone. And prosecutors say that's when she snapped, murdering her 13-year-old and 16-year-old and leaving them in the family's Tampa Palms home.
While her husband was serving overseas, prosecutors say Schenecker killed Beau while driving to soccer practice, then brought his body back home, where she shot and killed Calyx while she was doing her homework.
Prosecutors said both children were shot twice – once in the head and once in the face. She told police in an interview that she shot them in the face because they were "mouthy."
Schenecker's defense attorneys don't dispute that she shot and killed her children. They're arguing she should be found not guilty of pre-meditated murder because she is insane.
They began laying out her mental history and previous history of suffering abuse in their opening statements.
Schenecker's ex-husband, retired Colonel Parker Schenecker, took the stand Tuesday afternoon and described the family’s life in the days and weeks leading up to the murders.
He said the relationship between Julie and their daughter Calyx was strained. They sought counseling and were even looking at boarding schools for Calyx to get the two away from each other, he testified.
Days before the murder, Schenecker said he was scheduled to leave on a two to three week deployment. He said he asked Julie if she would be OK alone with the kids for that long.
He said her response was to look him “dead in the eye” and say “I got this.”
Parts of Julie Schenecker's journals were read in court. They offered glimpses into her suicidal state of mind. Here are excerpts:
“If you're wondering why I decided to take out the kids, it's to protect them from embarrassing them for the rest of their lives…also kids of suicidal parents tend to commit suicide themselves. Calyx has talked about suicide since she was 12…the best job I ever had was bringing up my babies. This is why i had to bring them on with me. It's too possible that they inherited the DNA and lived their lives depressed or bipolar. I believed I saved them from the pain…Parker, I'm sorry, so sorry. I don't know what to say. But I sense divorce was inevitable. But I can't live alone. In my last 7 weeks in bed, no one came into the bedroom to see how I was. You didn't teach the kids to be compassionate. Neither were you. I just needed a little chat."